Well, as time goes on we eventually shall always arive at another visit of Grant being dumped. At least it is somehow less painful this time, maybe its because I've barely seen Melissa for the past 5 or so weeks. Maybe its because I knew that it was inevitable after the conversation we had 5 weeks ago. *sighs* I think that I'm going to lie around in self-pity for a while then go to bed. Its odd though. Its almost like I'm replaying conversations that I had with Lauren way back when. Oh well, I don't want to think about that either. Maybe I should give up on relationships for a while. I know I said that last time, but this time, I think I may do that. There is no one around now in whom I really am interested. I donno. This sucks. People suck. Most importantly women suck as they will always blame you and always break your heart. I think what I really fear is being alone.


I really like(d?) Melissa. I hope that she doesn't think ill of me after we break up. If so, I guess that can't be helped. I think I'm going to go to my room now and lie down. I don't really want to do anything else